And the whole song is saying "Hey if I give this to you, If I give myself to you, are you strong enough to be there for me?" If not, I'll let go of the situation but I'm still going to be vulnerable to what's next. I shine the most within when I'm sharing my story with someone, or when I'm there for a friend, or when I do meet someone, I'm not bitter and sarcastic - I mean sometimes I am, but I'm proud that I'm okay with speaking about my heart. I just started getting to the place, definitely a few years ago, where I understood that vulnerability is actually such a strength. One of my issues is that I always felt like I was this weak person because I would cry, or I would get emotional, or I hated when people were rude. And I have every right to be: From 7-years-old to 27, I've been working, and I've had the most horrible things said to me, said about me, and being exposed to way too much. And as I grew up in this chaotic space, I did have to learn how to be tough, and to be strong, but I'm not this hard person. That means to me that vulnerability - and I've said this before - is a strength. I want to go out on the song "Vulnerable," because to me the idea of staying vulnerable represents the ability to move forward. I was in Texas, so I would assumethat thunder and lightning would mean "tornado." And so my mom, she would give me these books - and they're the little thin books for kids to know about "What's rain?" and "What's this?" and she just said "The more you learn about it and how it works, the less you're going to be afraid of it." I think that took so much work for me. When I was a kid, I was terrified of thunderstorms it would freak me out. I think "Fun," in that particular way, was that I do like learning about it. I have days where it is hard for me to get out of bed, or I have major anxiety attacks. Yes, I don't think I just magically feel better. That's something I will have to continue to work on. I fully believe in just making sure you check in with your doctors or therapist. I'm on the proper medication that I need to be on, even as far as my mental health. It sounds like you're doing a lot better now. You've spoken about suffering from anxiety and depression, and you took a break in 2018 for your mental health. I want to talk about one of the songs, "Fun" - there are a couple on this album that reference your struggles with mental health.
You've said this album is your diary from the past few years, and it does sound like it's a diary that was full of a lot of hurt.
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